Sometimes you have to say a few things
I’ve always been a proselytizer, though the content of my pushy messages has evolved over the years. I am no longer the 15-year-old absurdly confident pseudo-missionary, street-witnessing for Jesus on Saturday nights on E Street in San Bernardino, California. It was the main street through the city, where teens (and those who still acted like them) cruised up five miles, and back five miles, over and again for hours, looking for fun and trouble. E Street was full of action; a perfect place for soul-saving.
That behavior says as much about my…
My dear friend
your laugh is still hardy, though
it comes less often than
before
before, we planned adventures
Alaska in the summer or
Iceland, to see the northern lights
we planned to start that business
a splendid one we’d both enjoy, precisely
the color of our parachutes
spinning tales of our futures and fortunes,
we did none of those things
no time, less money of course
but when I forgot my song
you sang the lyrics
back to me
when you lost your heart
I held it in my hands
close and warm
now, we make accommodations no more…
“We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature.” — Abraham Lincoln
Ever since I was a little kid, I’ve pondered what is wrong with our species. The ridiculousness of wars among countries over political ideologies, the focus on competition, the battles over resources. It’s never made a bit of sense.
Was it an old film (War of the Worlds?) where humanity had…
The road no longer stretches out before her,
it’s soft visions from behind that occupy her mind.
In her dreams she’s 16
tawny hair whipping in the breeze,
on the back of a roan colored horse who loves to gallop.
Or 26, with three children
two girls and a boy,
peddling off in the distance through hot asphalt summers.
Sometimes she’s older,
in a courtroom, exhorting a jury,
competent and confident,
her voice always strong.
That favorite cobalt suit still hangs in the back of the closet.
There have been more funerals than weddings
for the past two decades.
Her…
There’s more than one way to have a spiritual experience
I’ve had quite a circuitous journey with God; it began when I was a preschooler.
I was raised on a steady diet of the Bible and prayer, starting off at a Baptist church as a toddler which lasted through my childhood years, moving to the Pentecostal brand as a teen. I was filled with the holy ghost, spoke in tongues, and could recite scripture as soon as I learned my ABCs. …
“Support your children in finding their own path — even if turns out to be different than what you had in mind,” says this therapist.
The eighteen-year-old young woman hunched forward on the sofa in my office. Tears spilled down her cheeks, leaving muddy streaks of mascara beneath both eyes. “I can’t disappoint my parents no matter how much I hate it here,” she said. “I’m stuck at this school. This is what they planned forever and they’ve already paid the tuition.”
I leaned forward. “So you’re telling me that even though you’ve been thinking of suicide you’re not going to let your mom and dad know how miserable you are? You’d rather die than disappoint them?”
She stared at the floor and nodded. “If…
A true story of loss, magical thinking, and living in peace
The sheer white curtains rippled with the breeze that came in through the window. The night was warm and the air thick with smoke from sandalwood incense. I kept it burning in every room of the house; I couldn’t have told you why. It felt right — like somehow it would help.
Somehow it might allow me to feel safe again.
For no reason I could explain I burned white candles in hope they would repel the angry ghosts. I could feel their wrath, their stares and accusations; they…
A memoir poem
My parents were grim and serious people who sent me to church for moral training in hopes that I’d become grim and serious too.
“BE YE HOLY FOR I AM HOLY” in capital letters meant “Don’t get pregnant in high school” in subtext. A grim and serious child earns straight As, and prays without ceasing — while she bites her nails, suffers from insomnia, and is prone to frequent vomiting.
With the paradox of adolescence came the backfire effect for I took rebellion equally seriously and would have run away to join the revolution and burn down…
Shavaun Scott
Psychotherapist, Writer, Relationship Educator. Shining light on the human experience and exploring uncommon bravery in word and deed.
